MY TESTIMONY of GOD’S GOODNESS to ME!!

[Dr. Dorothy E. Hooks, PsyD]

Psalm 107:1-3

Before I give my testimony, of how my ABBA FATHER brought me out of SOME messes in my life (this doesn’t even really scratch the surface of where God brought me from), I want to give a public notice to the devil!! Because he is trying to throw a rock and hide his hand as the old heads used to say, concerning my health!!! But I see him; I recognize his attacks and the last laugh is on him!!! AND THIS IS MY testimony TO GLORIFY GOD ALONE, FOR ALL HE HAS DONE IN PAST FOR ME AND THANK HIM FOR WHAT HE IS DOING NOW AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO IN THE NEW CHAPTERS OF MY LIFE!! NOTE: I wrote my testimony on Friday, June 10, 2022.

As Elevation Worship sing in their song, “My Testimony,” I can say the same thing:

“This is my testimony from death to life

Cause grace rewrote my story, I'll testify

By Jesus Christ the Righteous

I'm justified

This is my testimony

This is my testimony

If I'm not dead, You're not done

Greater things are still to come

Oh I believe”

I KNOW WHO I AM IN CHRST ENOUGH TO SHUT him DOWN AND RENDER him INOPERABLE IN MY LIFE!!! AS ANDREW WOMMACK SAYS, “I HAVE NOT ARRIVED, BUT I HAVE LEFT THE STATION!!”

I KNOW NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL EVER PROSPER BECAUSE FATHER’S PERFECT LOVE FOR ME IS UPHOLDING ME AND CASTING OUT ALL FEAR THE enemy TRYING TO CAUSE IN ANY WAY IN MY LIFE!!! 

I KNOW I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR, I AM NOT A VICTIM BUT VICTORIOUS IN, THROUGH, AND BECAUSE OF JESUS, I AM AN OVERCOMER, I AM THE HEALED OF THE LORD, I AM RESTORED, I AM REDEEMED, I AM LOVED BY GOD MY FATHER, AND SO, SO, SO, MUCH MORE BECAUSE OF JESUS!!!

I KNOW GREATER IS HE, GOD IN ME, THAN HE, THE devil, IN THE WORLD!! IT’S GOD’S LOVE FOR ME THAT IS SUSTAINING ME NOW - GOD’S LOVE FOR ME ALWAYS HAS SUSTAINED ME AND ALWAYS WILL!!! GOD’S LOVE FOR ME NEVER FAILS!!!

NO MATTER WHAT, I WILL NEVER, EVER, NEVER, take ANY pain meds!!! GOD, MY ABBA FATHER, HAS kept me down through the years, and brought me out of horrible situations of ALL kinds - including alcoholism, drug addictions, and domestic violence/abuse!!! 

GOD HIMSELF, delivered me from seven very abusive marriages!!! One of them, I was the abuser - not physical, but I rejected my husband’s love for me!! He was the ONLY husband I had, who REALLY loved me and showed it!! But I was too broken from the previous marriages, to see it!! 

That’s why it is so very important, to ALLOW GOD to deliver you, from ANY previous abusive, or other relationship, that robbed you of your self-worth, BEFORE you go into the next relationship!!!

It’s not fair to the person you are going into the relationship with, when you bring garbage from the last relationship, into the new one - you will put their life through a living hell, and you will get deeper into the bondage you are already in!!

RUN TO GOD, AND NOT FROM HIM - HE LOVES YOU AND IS WAITING ON YOU TO COME TO HIM!!! FATHER WILL NOT FORCE YOU TO DO WHAT YOU DON’T WANT TO DO!!!

PARTNER WITH GOD AND WAIT ON HIM, TO BRING YOU OUT OF THE BONDAGE FROM THE LAST RELATIONSHIP, AGAIN, BEFORE YOU GO INTO A NEW RELATIONSHIP - HE ALONE HAS YOUR EXIT STRATEGY!!

FATHER delivered me OUT of the LAST abusive marriage in October 2006 - that guy tried humpteen many times to kill me, but MY ABBA FATHER said, “NOT SO!!!”

And after God snatched that guy COMPLETELY OUT of my life, I didn’t set around waiting for my deliverance to come to me; I didn’t say, “God deliver me” and then sit down and say, “Oh, I am waiting on God!!” NO!!! I PARTNERED with GOD and went seeking for the way-out GOD HAD for me, as I was led by HIM!!

I went to every Women’s Conference I could find, I participated with various deliverance services at my Church at the time, and God lead me to various people, and other Ministries, who prayed with me, stood with me, counseled with me, and was there for me, until I got my BREAKTHROUGH from God!!!

I want to pause here and give a shout out to ALL the ones, individuals, and Ministries, who God had in place, ALL OVER THE WORLD WHERE I TRAVELED, to help me through ALL those abusive marriages, and ALL other messes I went THROUGH, in my life!! It was GOD’S Grace (Jesus), love, and mercy, that took me THROUGH then, is taking me THROUGH NOW, and WILL take me THROUGH in the future!!!

You all know who you are and so does God!!! I don’t want to start calling names, because I don’t want to miss anyone!! I thank you all and I love you all to life!!!! I KNOW my ABBA FATHER, HAS done you, your families, and Ministries very well - IS doing you all VERY WELL - and WILL continue to do you all VERY WELL for helping me!!

I went to every Women’s Conference I could find, I participated with various deliverance services at my Church at the time, and God lead me to various people, and other Ministries, who prayed with me, stood with me, counseled with me, and was there for me, until I got my BREAKTHROUGH from God!!!

I want to pause here and give a shout out to ALL the ones, individuals, and Ministries, who God had in place, ALL OVER THE WORLD WHERE I TRAVELED, to help me through ALL those abusive marriages, and ALL other messes I went THROUGH, in my life!! It was GOD’S Grace (Jesus), GOD'S love, and mercy, that took me THROUGH then, is taking me THROUGH NOW, and WILL take me THROUGH in the future!!!

You all know who you are and so does God!!! I don’t want to start calling names because I don’t want to miss anyone!! I thank you all and I love you all to life!!!! I KNOW MY ABBA FATHER, HAS done you, your families, and Ministries VERY WELL - IS doing you all VERY WELL - and WILL continue to do you all VERY WELL for helping me!!

When I went THROUGH those abusive marriages, I was not serving God most of the time honestly or had turned back to the world!! But GOD’S love kept me through those horrible abuses AND EVERYTHING else I went THROUGH!! THAT’S the kind of God we are in relationship with - God wants us well spirit, soul, and body, and HE WILL lovingly do things, whatever it takes (NOT hurt us though), to bring us out of those situations and to keep us as we are going THROUGH them!!!

It’s NOT God who is causing us to go through stuff or keeping us there to teach us something - that’s a bunch of lying MESS, the devil cooked up to keep people from trusting God!!! The devil, the thief, is the one who comes to steal, kill, and destroy, BUT my Jesus came to give us ABUNDANT LIFE (John 10:10-11)!!!

John 10:10-11 ESV tells us this: 

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.”

Therefore, if you have things in your life that’s not allowing you to walk in the ABUNDANT LIFE Jesus gave you; that’s NOT allowing you to EXPERIENCE YOUR ABUNDANT LIFE FROM JESUS; that’s stealing your peace, joy, causing you fear, etc., you got a thief present and YOU should KICK “IT” OUT YOUR life, body, family, etc.!!!

We go through things because of various reasons - MOSTLY because of our own wills - not hearing God when He lovingly warns us not to do something and we do it!! When we do that, the devil steps in and can get a foothold in our lives!! That’s what happened to me; I married number seven against the will of God!!! I was warned by two unsaved people, NOT to marry number seven!! But I disobeyed God and followed my flesh!!! God will use ANYONE who opens themselves up to Him!!

Remember, God even used a donkey to warn Balaam in Numbers 22:21-39? This is what those verses of Scriptures says (ESV):

So Balaam rose in the morning and saddled his donkey and went with the princes of Moab. But God’s anger was kindled because he went, and the angel of the Lord took his stand in the way as his adversary. Now he was riding on the donkey, and his two servants were with him. And the donkey saw the angel of the Lord standing in the road, with a drawn sword in his hand. And the donkey turned aside out of the road and went into the field. And Balaam struck the donkey, to turn her into the road. Then the angel of the Lord stood in a narrow path between the vineyards, with a wall on either side. 

And when the donkey saw the angel of the Lord, she pushed against the wall and pressed Balaam’s foot against the wall. So he struck her again. Then the angel of the Lord went ahead and stood in a narrow place, where there was no way to turn either to the right or to the left. When the donkey saw the angel of the Lord, she lay down under Balaam. And Balaam’s anger was kindled, and he struck the donkey with his staff. Then the Lord opened the mouth of the donkey, and she said to Balaam, “What have I done to you, that you have struck me these three times?” And Balaam said to the donkey, “Because you have made a fool of me. I wish I had a sword in my hand, for then I would kill you.” And the donkey said to Balaam, “Am I not your donkey, on which you have ridden all your life long to this day? Is it my habit to treat you this way?” And he said, “No.” Then the Lord opened the eyes of Balaam, and he saw the angel of the Lord standing in the way, with his drawn sword in his hand. And he bowed down and fell on his face. And the angel of the Lord said to him, “Why have you struck your donkey these three times? Behold, I have come out to oppose you because your way is perverse before me. The donkey saw me and turned aside before me these three times. If she had not turned aside from me, surely just now I would have killed you and let her live.” Then Balaam said to the angel of the Lord, “I have sinned, for I did not know that you stood in the road against me. Now therefore, if it is evil in your sight, I will turn back.” And the angel of the Lord said to Balaam, “Go with the men, but speak only the word that I tell you.” So Balaam went on with the princes of Balak. When Balak heard that Balaam had come, he went out to meet him at the city of Moab, on the border formed by the Arnon, at the extremity of the border. And Balak said to Balaam, “Did I not send to you to call you? Why did you not come to me? Am I not able to honor you?”

Balaam said to Balak, “Behold, I have come to you! Have I now any power of my own to speak anything? The word that God puts in my mouth, that must I speak.” Then Balaam went with Balak, and they came to Kiriath-huzoth.”

BUT MY FAITHFUL, LOVING, AND CARING ABBA FATHER, CARRIED ME THROUGH ALL THAT I WENT THROUGH - HE LOVINGLY LET ME KNOW MANY TIMES THAT HE WAS THERE WITH ME – WAITING FOR ME TO TRULY TURN TO HIM!!! NOT ONE TIME DID FATHER LEAVE ME!!! AND FATHER GAVE ME MY ESCAPE FROM THAT LAST ABUSER!!! I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN ANOTHER ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP NOR WILL I EVER AGAIN BE!! GOD HIMSELF TOTALLY DELIVERED ME FROM ALL EFFECTS OF ALL THOSE ABUSES - IT TOOK A LONG TIME, NOT BECAUSE OF GOD, BUT BECAUSE OF MY DOINGS OR NOT DOING!!

If you are going THROUGH something, remember, Jesus HAS given us AUTHORITY OVER ALL the power of the enemy and the enemy can only do what WE allow him to do!!! The enemy HAS NO power of his own - Jesus stripped him of ALL his power over us!!!

Other things God delivered me from was drugs and alcohol - I WAS a drug addict, and alcoholic!! But PRAISE GOD, HE delivered me from both those things long time ago - the last drink I had was in like April of 2005!!! Now, I don’t want ANYTHING, including food, with alcohol, or drugs!!! My old chiropractor kept trying to get me to do the cbd products for pain - NO!!! And a lot of the marijuana dispensaries have popped up all over the small towns surrounding where I live!! NO!!! They can have ALL that mess!! That are both still drugs to me!! And I want NO part of them!!

NOTE: PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO EXPLAIN TO ME ABOUT EITHER – I AM NOT INTERESTED!! YOU DO YOU AND I WILL DO ME!! THANK YOU!!

I am trusting God to bring me to the OTHER SIDE of this pain - and NOT trusting in the arms or flesh!! I went to the ER today, mainly for X-rays to show my Dr., and my Therapist, so they will know what to work on – I trust God to give them the PERFECT treatment plan for me and God will give me a confirmation of what to accept from them, and what not to accept!! Just because they suggest something, that does not make me jump and do it – if I am not getting a witness in my spirit, I am not doing it!! I remember years ago, sweet Dr. Precious Williams told me, when I was attending Citadel of Hope Ministries in Leesburg, FL, not to accept EVERYTHING the Doctors tell me – NOW I DON’T!! Not only Doctors, but others too!!

But the ER Doctor tried to give me pain meds, Toradol, and a muscle relaxer but I said NO!!! GOD GOT ME!!! AND HIS POWER IS WORKING MIGHTILY IN MY BODY AND SOUL, TO BRING MY HEALING, HEALTH, AND RESTORATION INTO THE NATURAL REALM!!!

I AM ALREADY WALKING IN MY DIVINE HEALTH, DIVINE HEALING, DIVINE RESTORATION, DIVINE PROSPERITY, MY ABUNDANT LIFE, AND ALL MY JESUS GAVE ME - ALL THESE THINGS AND MORE IS IN MY BORN-AGAIN SPIRIT - AND I HAVE PARTNERED WITH MY ABBA FATHER, JESUS, AND HOLY SPIRIT, TO MANIFEST THEM IN MY LIFE, BODY, AND SOUL!!!

As I wait, for my healing, health, restoration manifestation in my body (I am NOT waiting on God to do anything, He HAS DONE ALL HE needs to do - JESUS FINISHED ALL FOR ME OVER 2000 YEARS AGO - it’s up to ME to get into the Word and persuade my heart, FULLY renew my mind, to what JESUS HAS ACCOMPLISHED FOR ME), I AM keeping my FOCUS on GOD, building myself up in the Word by studying various teachings, that pertains to my situation!!

I found out everything doesn’t work for everyone - we are individuals and God deals with us individually!! Ask God for YOUR strategy against the attacks of the enemy that’s coming against YOUR life – GOD WILL give YOU one!!

Most of all, as you go THROUGH whatever it is you are facing, KNOW that God loves you with an EVERLASTING, UNCONDITIONAL love and HE WILL NEVER, EVER, leave you alone or forsake you!! KNOW that God is for you and NOT against you!! KNOW that God wants you to prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers (3 John 2 - KJV)!! KNOW that God wants you well and NOT sick!!! God DOES NOT get pleasure out of you being sick - another LIE from the devil to people about God!!!

When you study the Word, you will find out who God is, who Jesus is, who Holy Spirit is, and who you are in Christ (2 Timothy 3:15 – KJV)!!

Here is my Church’s website - LakeHaven Church in Eustis. There are a lot of great teachings from our Pastors, Shannon & Karin Carroll and Pastor T (Terrence Demps)!! Along with visiting Pastors and Ministers!! Check it out: http://www.lakehaven.tv

Under the “Resources” tab, there are great study tools, and even a Holy Spirit Devotional!!

I was about to end my testimony, as I have tried to many times today, but as I did before, more kept coming to me:)!!

Now, here is the current part of my testimony: AND PRAISE GOD THE PAIN IN MY LEFT KNEE, THE ONE I WENT TO THE ER ABOUT, HAS SUBSIDED A LOT!! I DON’T HAVE TO USE A CANE TO WALK ANYMORE!!! BEFORE, I COULD NOT STRETCH MY LEFT LEG ALL THE WAY OUT OR HARDLY BEND MY KNEE!!

ALL PRAISE, HONOR, AND GLORY GOES TO GOD!!! THANK YOU FATHER, THANK YOU JESUS, THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!! I LOVE YOU FATHER, I LOVE YOU JESUS, I LOVE YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!! 

As I was typing my testimony in my iPhone’s Note App, I was lying down. But I was stretching my legs, and knees, and doing some exercises that my Physical and Occupational Therapist showed me how to do, with my heating pad on my legs, and knees!!

And I just got out the bed not long ago and I got up WALKING, hardly any pain!!!! BLESS GOD!!!! Before I laid down, I was in horrible pain, I had pulled out my walking cane to help me walk, and heavy-duty knee brace, I had before when the right knee issue started!!

BUT BLESS GOD, I GOT OUT OF BED LIKE NOTHING, AND STARTED WALKING NORMALLY, WITHOUT THE USE OF A CANE OR KNEE BRACE - DID NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED EARLIER!!! I HAD TAKEN SOME STEPS WHEN IT HIT ME, “I AM WALKING NORMALLY!!” PRAISE GOD!!! THANK YOU FATHER, THANK YOU JESUS, THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!!!

MY MANIFESTATION IN THE NATURAL IS SHOWING AND IT WON’T BE LONG BEFORE HOLY SPIRIT MANIFEST MY FULL DIVINE HEALING, DIVINE HEALTH, AND DIVINE RESTORATION INTO MY NATURAL BODY - IT HAS TO FLOW THROUGH MY SOUL FROM HOLY SPIRIT, INTO MY BODY!!! AND THAT’S WHERE I COME IN; THAT’S MY PART TO RENEW MY MIND WITH WHAT THE WORD SAYS ABOUT ME BEING ALREADY HEALED BY JESUS’ STRIPES - I MUST CONVINCE MY SOUL (MIND, WILL, EMOTIONS) THAT IT, ALONG WITH MY BODY WAS HEALED OVER TWO THOUSAND YEARS AGO, BY JESUS STRIPES!!!

My spirit was healed, and restored to Father, immediately after I accepted Jesus as my personal Lord, AND Savior!!! I am PERFECT in my spirit NOW - this is where God the Father, God the Son, Jesus, God the Holy Spirit, dwells - THE TRINITY LIVES IN ME!!!

However, the soul, and body has to be convinced of what Jesus HAS done!!! And that’s MY responsibility, to do what Apostle Paul said in Romans 12:1-2 (ESV):

“I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”

And I KNOW WHATEVER I go THROUGH, it’s NOT GOD testing ME, but my faith that is being tested!!!

James talks about this in James chapter 1 - here are some key verses from his chapter:

James 1:2-8:

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.”

James 1:12-18 ESV:

“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one. But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death. Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers. Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. Of his own will he brought us forth by the word of truth, that we should be a kind of firstfruits of his creatures.”

I pray MY testimony of GOD’S GRACE (GRACE IS A PERSON, AND HIS NAME IS JESUS - GOD SENT JESUS TO SAVE ME AND BRING ME BACK TO HIM!!!), GOD’S GOODNESS, GOD’S LOVE (FATHER DEMONSTRATED HIS OWN LOVE FOR ME, IN THAT WHILE I WAS YET A SINNER, CHRIST DIED FOR ME!!! NOW, I AM NOT A SINNER, I AM ACCEPTED IN THE BELOVED!!!).

For a GREAT teaching on “Spirit, Soul, Body,” click here to study Andrew Wommacks’ own – it’s the complete teaching. It is taken from the Zoom Group Study I am in, but we finish this coming Tuesday, June 14^th.

I pray GOD’S FAITHFULNESS, GOD’S MERCY, AND GOD’S BLESSINGS to, and for me, will encourage you in WHATEVER you are going THROUGH!!

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God’s BLESSINGS to you all, your families, and your Ministries!!

In Christ,

Rev. Dr. Dorothy E. Hooks